We’re only 7 days into the new year so gimme a break okay?
2015 was BIG, literally. I was pregnant, we moved into our dream house, I took the longest break I’ve ever had away from work in like 10 years and Baxter was born.
I don’t even know where to start with summing up my year. I knew one day I would be a mum, but I didn’t think last year would be the year although I’m glad I can say I had a baby before I hit the big 3-0. There were so many emotions that went along with it but I think my pregnancy posts covered the feels.
Looking back on it all now, the year did actually go pretty quickly but it didn’t feel like it at the time. I am totally getting into the groove of this whole mum thing but no two days are the same. I’m glad I have made the decision to return to work, I start back in February. Being somebody who is very career driven, a business owner and serial side project creator I definitely found the whole stay at home mum thing hard. I covered all of this in a previously post so won’t go into too much detail.
I struggled a lot in the early weeks after Baxter was born, I am not going to lie, I’ve talked openly in my posts and will continue to do so. People say it gets better, it honestly does. I am no longer scared, living in fear and questioning my parenting decisions. I am confident and no longer worried to go out in public in case he loses his shit and I can’t settle him. I know what I am doing and he is one happy little boy.
I grew up a lot in the last 12 months, I kind of had too but to be totally honest having Baxter has changed my perspective in so many ways. Things that used to matter to me no longer do and I’ve realised I devoted so much time to people who simply weren’t worth my time.
This new year I’ve decided to really dedicate to my new family while also settling back into work so I can provide and create fun new opportunities for us all while Baxter is still young. I am planning a small trip away, we won’t leave NZ just yet as the idea of travelling overseas with an under 1 scares the living shit out of me but it’d be nice to get away somewhere. Queenstown is at the top of my list, I’ve never been there and have always wanted to go but never did I think the first time I’d visit I would have a baby in tow!
I won’t ramble anymore, I’ve covered the main stuff. Time goes so quickly and you really have to cherish the now and not worry too much about the future, whilst it’s good to have plans/goals I am going to spend more time living and less time worrying about what’s to come.
I celebrate my 29th birthday in 2 weeks so it’ll be nice to get together with some friends and have a few glasses of bubbles to celebrate all I’ve accomplished in the last year. My parents will have Baxter for the night which is nice as I know he’ll be in good hands and he just adores them.
Over and out, here’s to an amazing 2016. I promise I’ll blog more – even if they’re short and sweet.